It's been almost 4 weeks since I last worked out, and this week I am hoping to show up to my yoga mat a time or two. I don't think I'm ready for a class yet, so I'm going to try to find a postpartum video online… I wonder if they talk about placenta in those? I hope not. I don't feel more ready to listen to that now that I've seen real placenta. Seriously though, placenta aside- I need yoga right now. My back and my body hate me right now from hunching over a baby all day and so. much. sitting. on. the. couch. I don't have any high expectations for what will happen on the mat, just that I will show up.
(PS. My doctor cleared me to do yoga before my 6 week appointment, FYI)
You know those days when it just seems like the universe is telling you not to work out? That was me at my last yoga workout, the Sunday before I had Max. Here were my super awesome reasons to skip yoga:
1. I was fighting a cold.
2. I was up half the night itching.
3. My car wouldn't start because the battery died (car seat installation gone wrong).
4. I took Eric's car but then forgot my yoga mat.
5. I walked into yoga without my wallet or my keys which have my card for yoga on them.
6. I was now really late, and I hate being late.
Yes, I had some reasons to skip yoga on that Sunday morning. But I also had a lot of reasons why I just HAD to go to yoga. See 1-6 above. I was also meeting a friend there, and I was worried we would NEVER be able to do prenatal yoga together if I didn't go (insert dramatic voice here). Plus, I was about to have a baby and if that wasn't scary enough, I was in a constant state of panic that my liver was attacking him. Plus, I just love the Sunday yoga teacher. I couldn't skip it.
So I didn't.
If you've ever done yoga before, you probably know there are certain themes that are constantly emerging in yoga no matter which studio you practice at. I was first drawn to the idea of breathing in a difficult moment. When you are in a super hard pose and your muscles want to give out, that is exactly when you need to breathe more. In life, when you are in a difficult moment, that is exactly when you need to breathe more. I may never master the art of shutting my mind off and focusing on my breath, but I do carry the idea of breathing in a difficult moment into my life.
But the yoga-ism that I need right now is the idea of just showing up. This is applicable to everything. Had a rough night and don't want to deal with work in the morning? Just show up. Your friend is going through a really hard time and you have no idea how to help her? Just show up. It's 5am and Max is crying hysterically and you have no idea what the heck is wrong? Just show up. Oh wait, that's just me, ha ha.
I was talking to my friend the other night and she was telling me that she has been trying to work out more and it's hard because she works a full time job and she has a 1 year old and those are great reasons not to do anything when you finally get home (she didn't say this, I did!). But, like my reasons above, they are also reasons why working out is essential. She told me that Eric advised her to just tell herself, I'll go downstairs and bike for 10 minutes. Just show up.
When was the last time you had to just show up, either in a workout or in life?