Happy New Year!
As I've done for the last few years, I'll be doing monthly rather than yearly goals again this year. 2013 proved to me yet again that I just have NO clue where the year will take me and so it's best to focus on shorter time periods. Plus, let's be honest, I really have no idea what parenthood is going to be like and any goals I set now would probably be squashed. Oh, and I'm not doing goals in January. In all likelihood I'm having a baby this month, a month earlier than expected so let's just focus on that, shall we?
Still, I do have a few hopes for the year. If they don't happen, it's okay, I just hope.
Specifically...
-Take good care of my body the next few weeks until delivery. Attend yoga whenever I can. Continue to swim. Rest when I need to. Try not to stress about all the unknown ahead.
-Embrace the imperfection. This baby will not have a Pinterest or even blog worthy nursery by the time he is born. He may never. That's okay. The house is not going to be clean and organized all the time, maybe even ever. That's okay. I may cry every day for 3 months. That's okay.
-I joke, but I seriously believe, I am a total candidate for postpartum depression. I don't know what in the world I'm doing with a baby. I hate losing sleep and I'm a miserable person without it. I hate being home all day accomplishing what I determine is nothing at all. I am going to keep my eye on this and not let it get out of control. Of course, it would be even better if I just love motherhood and am just super happy all the time :) So I'll hope for that!
-Do some of the challenges on the Rookie Moms website. I definitely fear that once Eric goes back to work I will just be freaking out too much to leave the house. I want to push myself to go out and do things with Max even if it's complicated and hard.
2. Try to maintain some of what currently makes me happy.
Specifically...
-Get back into exercise as soon as my body is ready. But, expect that changes will have to be made based on how I'm feeling and the fact that leaving the house to do exercise may be difficult for awhile.
-Do at least one sprint triathlon this summer. Again, expecting it will be difficult- now I'll have to get up even earlier to make sure Max is fed beforehand. Yippee. Do they have late morning triathlons?
-Go on a trip. It don't care where it is to.
-Show Max all the stuff we love. Like, the Cape and other fun touristy stuff.
These sound a lot like goals huh? I guess you can take the girl out of Type A but you can't take the Type A out of the girl :)
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You remind me of myself with your fears of motherhood and having a new baby. I can't wait to have our own baby, but I am so scared of all of the changes and how it will affect me. I don't do well big changes and little sleep, but maybe we will both surprise ourselves. I love the attitude and honesty you have too with motherhood.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you adjust and adapt to having a new born better than you think it will! If you end up not liking that stage, don't feel bad. A couple of my friends felt the same way about the infant stage so if you ever need someone to tell you that how you feel is completely normal, I can send you their way. ;)
ReplyDeleteI am praying for a safe and healthy delivery of Max. I wish I lived nearby so I could come visit and give you a break when/if you need one!
I have a lot of thoughts but I can't seem to put them into words at the moment haha. All I will say is we are all here for you in 2014 and we will most definitely still have our bike rides and pond swims.
ReplyDeleteParenthood will bring you more joys than you ever expected, but not without a price. I don't mean to sound negative, but parenthood will have challenging moments and you will have to learn how to balance taking care of yourself with helping a little guy survive! I will say to be kind to yourself regarding that rookie mom's list. I think it can easily take new parents a few months to feel balanced enough to regularly leave the house. Sadly (for you and for me), I think it's harder to get outside or out of the house at all when your baby is a newborn in the winter. Now, that's not to say you shouldn't aim to do anything on that list ... just be gentle with yourself if you're finding it doesn't make sense to attack that list just yet ... and save it for when you're truly ready.
ReplyDeleteI found that with a newborn I preferred to make our outtings to other peoples house. Because my infant did not like her carseat and screamed the entire trip anyway and then she did not like to be in her stroller awake so she'd scream in that and she did not like to be in her carrier too long or she'd scream in that. So unless I wanted to walk around say the air conditioned mall with her in my arms there weren't many options for a bit. So to grandma's house we went! And stayed. And ate. I don't know if I can geek myself up to do it again but I will say the older she gets the more fun she gets. ;) Minus the really early wake ups this week with the yelling of NO NO NIGHT NIGHT DADDY NO NO NIGHT DADDY. UP UP. I need a bigger house. Or sound proof walls. I am not a morning person.
ReplyDeleteI think you'll adapt faster than you think but I agree with previous commenters who say be gentle on yourself through this transition. I am so excited to e-meet Max and hopefully really meet him one day!!
ReplyDeleteOh, I love this. You are approaching parenthood with a really reasonable view of how it will be (hard! but not the worst!) and expectations well within reason.
ReplyDeleteI will say that spending a month sitting on the couch watching TV might not be the WORST thing in the world. ;) I usually have a hard time doing nothing, but the singlemindedness of newborn-hood was actually kind of peaceful. (I'm worried it will be different with a 3 year old at home!) And you have a baby carrier or wrap to make doing stuff around the house easier, yeah?
We ventured out to Target or Babies R Us or my parents house once a week for something to do. I got bored being alone ALL the time. But having a baby in the cold months might be different - more germ worries. Stupid germs!
I'm so excited for you. :)