The first August Breakdown was particularly noteworthy. I actually managed to convince myself that my neck pain (clearly stress related) was in fact Easter Equine Encephalities, also known as Tripe E. This particular illness is passed by mosquitos, and did you know it was first discovered in Massachusetts in 1831? So, it wasn't TOO much of a stretch, I mean...I DO live in Massachusetts right.
The second August Breakdown involved several sleepless nights in a row culminating in my total breakdown at 1 am to poor Eric who had simply asked me, "are you awake?". During the third August breakdown I called my health insurance company to find out what their coverage was for seeking the help of a mental health professional (but I did never hire one, because it's only the August Breakdown, in September I can handle life haha).
Previously all August Breakdowns occurred on Labor Day Weekend so since school begins before Labor Day this year AND Labor Day is technically in September I thought I was in the clear. But no, the August Breakdown returned this weekend in the form of INSANE ANTSYness. Yup, that's right I could not sit still- the whole idea of sitting at all drove me absolutely crazy all weekend. At first I thought it was because we had some plans for the weekend that we couldn't do because the weather was not great. Then I thought maybe it was because I didn't go to the gym in the morning. But today I woke up and managed to crank out 40 minutes on the elliptical and my PT exercises and still be totally restless the whole day. Since I have gotten into running and biking outside, I really have not been able to deal with gym machines for long enough to actually get a work out. But today if my stomach had not been growling I could've probably managed to stay on that elliptical all day long. Plus I finally found an elliptical that does not bother my knee at all. Of course it was at the Cape so I hope they will have it at my home gym. Here is the beauty:
I am hoping this week I can transfer this nervous energy into some seriously good workouts and POWER dress shopping opportunities. I know once I get back into the routine I will be fine, but it's scary to go back into the insane schedule and a new class (which God only knows what that can bring!). The good news is, Eric is not reconsidering his proposal because he has his own version of the August Breakdown every year, particularly this year because he is starting football coaching tomorrow (aka have no life and not a single day off for several months). He was just stressing a few minutes ago and I said "at least you don't have Triple E..." and he said "I'll take Triple E, sorry- can't coach, I have triple E..." Haha. Anyway, I must go get ready for my tutoring kiddos tomorrow. I don't know why I think it's going to be such a big transition this year with how crazy this summer has been. But then again, fear of the unknown...